Sometimes, I wish I was stronger, I wish I could feel no pain, I wish I was smart, I wish I had power, I wish I could change the world...
Regarding the verification letter, I knew my fuckin' stupid previous boss has disturbed the process. On 1st of July, I'm gonna Tokai University Hospital to ARGUE... Oh sorry, not argue, I'm gonna talk to The Personnel Department staff first, then I'll meet the idiot. This is like my last breathe. Who knows the result? Maybe only God knows my future... I don't wanna be broken my future by small person's EGO.
This song is my favorite song and the theme song of a movie "Coach Carter", which is a nonfiction basketball story. Everytime this reminds me of "What is the Power of Dream?". The lyric is beautiful as well!
And another video below is also one scene of the movie. It's an amazing quote!!!
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone.
And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
Samuel L. Jackson stars in this inspiring true story of Coach Ken Carter.
Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson from A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles
Since I came back to Japan, I haven't drunk with Martini. It was easy to get it in LDN and I want to... However, in my home town, it's countryside, I couldn't find it everywhere. Then, yesterday I ordered one bottle on the internet as a first step. All I have to do is to wait with expectation!
Today, I knew that I had been embroiled in supervisor's mistake. It was not my fault, but most staff blamed me because I'm a young staff. It means that they can not tell her directly. I loathe this weak Japanese mentality and I felt that what small people they are.
Bloody Hell!!!
Now I am studying Sonography by myself step by step. Well, I will leave from here soon and go back in medical practice. Here is not my field I want to work for Patients.
Festival season has just started from last weekend in England!
I really miss last summer because I could become a teenager! It reminded me of I was 19 when it was the first time to visit England and to take part in the real Festival in 2002. That experience changed my life absolutely and took me out to England again in 2008.
Watching some videos of 2010, I remembered the fantastic summer in my life. I got some special friends,too. I really miss...
In my English class on Thursday, me and classmate were talking about "Which is more important, creative thought or factual knowledge?". This question came from an article from BBC website.
It was a really interesting topic for me. Because my job, ESP Sonography, is related to both of them. In medical area, firstly, the diagnosis, examination, and nursing etc... are based on pppppplenty of factual knowledge and we are dealing with each treatments while caring about patient's condition, medical history, and body type etc...
Regarding Sonography, I suspect some kind of diseases before the screening, and I will be eliminating some from the suspections corresponding to factual knowledge while I am screening the patient's body. In the screening, I am also useing Creative thought because organs' location is not the same place every patients. This means that I can not do the exam smoothly unless I always think about what is happening and where it is. The level of exam difficulty is also influenced by patient's condition. So this is the most hardest examination, and I really want to master this technique.
Working in medical area is never boring for me and I really love this field.
We are one people. We are equal. You are wonderful and rare.
"The day I cry" is 泣いた日 written by 阿部 勇樹 who is a Japanese Football player. He describes his growth through meeting people, overcoming hardships and his family. I had thought that most professional sports players have really strong mentalities normally. In case of him, however, he didn't have even though his career has started since he was 16. He said in this book that his mentality was very weak at the beginning, then it developed after meeting Ivica Osim who was a previous manager of Japanese national team.
As I see it, these 3 books, "心を整える" "日本男児" "泣いた日", say that you must make an effort as much as you can if you want to attain your goal. I was inspired by them and I'm gonna continue to study English until I can talk with native speakers completely.
Today I went to a bookshop in a big city because I wanted to buy a medical book. I bought 3 books in the end, but I was there for more than 1 hour to look for fascinated books. I think, in these days, library and bookshop are like a treasure island for me. The reason why I love to read books is that I can get knowledge and wisdom from them, and they would change my life better. Anyway, the medical book was really expensive. So I hope that the knowledge taking from the book will repay as an additional salary someday.
It's lovely British Accent in the begining of this video!
When you look with your eyes, Everything seems nice... But, if you look twice, you can see it's all lies!
"Tiger Mother" is the worst book I've ever read. The author is telling her Chinese style of child education in her book, but I think that there are no children's right. In her idea, children are like a puppet of parents and they must obey the rules as a slave. I loathe this radical idea because I grew up with this. However, the author did it with her self-confidence.
I think, this is just how to brainwash Children. I've never felt how clever she is even though she has a great status. If she had mixed good education styles of both cultures which are Asian and Western, it would have been brilliant.
In my opinion, child education is no obligation. The most important thing is to encourage their curiosity and creativity, and to give them plenty of chances what they want while believing children's potential.
I know, I'm still being a single, but one day when I become dad, I'd love to cultivate children's talent!
Today, I wanted to rent "深夜特急" written by Kotaro Sawaki, but there're no left in library. So I bought two books named "Tiger Mother" and "the day I cry" instead. I will comment about these in near future.
Recently, I have posted articles almost everyday and it means that I haven't kept my English diary. Today I filled in all empy pages. This English diary started from Jan 2008 and has been written in English since Jun 2008. The purpose was simple. I just wanted to improve my English while doing this. I know, more than 3 years has passed since I started, but my level of English remains constant. The reason I feel so is that I don't know native expressions and no one check my writings. There is no future...
Yesterday, I watched the match Date against Williams. It was really close to win and I was so proud of her. In professional sports, most players are Black and Caucasian. Asian players are rare. In this match, audiences were white, then Black and Asian players fought each other on the court. I was also impressed the situation that there was overflowingly standing ovations in the end.
Who knows what could happen Do what you do Just keep on laughing One thing's true There's always a brand new day I'm gonna live today like it's my last day
